If you love than go for it, we just live once - to my dear trip

It is almost four year since my last long travel. I always want to do a big one when I done my uni. But my dear goose already fall in love  with other woman... And he told me he think she is more suit for him.... Ok. So What can i do? Go traveling alone again or live my life? 

The first step is to make so money and make me feel safe first. Than the next plan , do something or learn something I can earn money on the way..... like handicraft? no , not really, i try before in england , not work so well, Sell small stuff? ... I try that too in australia... I am not that talent... so lets do something interesting and useful... How about electricity? 

OK .. DEAL , that why I am doing the electricity engineering causes... very useful and now I don't need to depend on my brother to fix the electricity problem in our house, I can do it by myself . But once i enter this world , oh my god, there are huge knowledge inside... theory , maths, hands-on ... and more maths coming. 

Because of the covid, I have no customer for a long time, so I can be lazy , very lazy , only sleep eat and watch youtube.. and do so house work.. thats it. what are lazy life for a month. And now it is the time to start again become the busy bee and the slave for money... I need to set my goal for now till the end of this year and next year. 

In this case I can go once I finish and have enough for me to spend on my way. I want to live the life i want not how you want me to. To my money oriented brother and my dad... you can live the life you want, live with the number around you and I want to become a happy simple person. 

But for sure, I need some money to exchange some need/ food/ service. So i better train my skill so that i can exchange that with u when i need to.  

Don't give up !!! 

 

how we look at the same stuff

 question, what come up to your mind when i say “ fish” ? for me the first fish come up is the small fish usually my mum cook, the second came up is the fish in blue tail( deep sea) which i think very pretty. and than the other image come with a fish in a tank. ( green small fish) which i saw in the sisters house. 

fm the images come up, the think i saw a lot around me will will the first consideration. the frequency! 

the second is some fish i think pretty , which is fulfill my imagination. i could said my mind satisfaction. 

third the common fish: it is around every where i shop in fish street . 

it also make me think about what i see limit my imagination, the surrounding is a limit of what i can find around me.

what can we do if we want to think big? to experience many different stuff , to try , to see or to mix them and to test. 

life still full of unknow and beauty.

where is the wings of the bird? it is a dark period of time

What can we do to make other people believe and trust us when bad things happen. Like what sink said, you don't need a lawer when bad stuff happen because the people know you and understand you. To build up a repetition like this, it take time and behave. We do what we said, what we believe and what stand for us. 

Once upon a time, we believe if you fight for what you believe you will get that one day. But it seems sometime when people who have bigger power, higher position setting up the rules. 

 

It make people lose their mind and can't trust the true ... why all this happen 

The Blur area in the moment

Once upon a time, I believe if you put your heart to do something, even you fail you still alright. But if the mistake is pretty big, you will not just loss money but you will also lost the trust fm the other parties. And suddenly, I found i was pretty lucky that I did not make very big mistake -( that involves other party)  in my life till last month.

The mistake is already there, so the next step is to fix it... but it is very hard to accept and forget myself.

Even I told myself if you don't win , you are learning... but still feel heart broken and sad.
Is that because we trust people easily that why we end up like this?

I believe there are good people in the earth and I believe if we open my heart , we will meet the right person. Hopefully everything will be alright soon.

draw draw draw - watercolor

hope all of you like my drawing

to our dear rugby lover - toni

To the lover of rugby